Break Ups, Make Ups and Bullcrap

Did you really just tell me to go fudge myself and then tell me I was the rude one? Excuse me but I believe you need a reality check, was I not the one who put up with all your shit and been there for you through the ups and downs. 

I am sorry that this had to happen to you and I get that you're mad, but you don't have the right to take that anger out on me. I know it's hard and I'm not trying to make this about me like you say I always do, but you're not only one. 

It sucks it did not work out between us, I wish it did because I was able to open up and trust you. I shouldn't say I can't trust you anymore, the feeling just isn't the same. 

We've both ruined friendships because of our relationship, mine seem to be more messed up though. The point is I didn't care if that certain group of people didn't like you, it was up to me to make the decision. I don't regret anything about what happened between us, if anything I am grateful because you taught me so much. We had our moments of anger and the greatest ones of being happy. 

You were my first boyfriend. I don't know if I can say first love because I don't even know what love is. I know we said it so many times, but did we really mean it? Yeah there must have been times when we really did, though other times were just because we wanted to feel that safe security and hear the other say it. 

Please if you only take one thing out of those times we sent together let it be that your were the one I felt safe with, felt the most joy, showed me that it is okay to open up and be yourself no matter what. Things will be different without you around but life goes on. Hopefully someday we will be able to remain close and fix this messed up friendship that is going on right now. Remember I like you.