Time and Space

Why do we rely on others to do so much for us, when we are the ones who end up doing it the way we want it in the end? Why do we stress over the little things but do not flinch in the face of the big things? Why is it when we feel close to someone we push away? Why try and be someone we're not? Why ask why and worry on a daily basis?

This is life and no matter what is thrown at us we need to get up and deal with it. The real world is not a place for fooling around in the work place or acting irresponsibly in public. There is the time and space for growth happen in life, but when will it happen?

Life is something that we need to allow to happen. The pieces will fall the way the should and not be forced on because we want them to. There is a plan in our lives, not one that is picked right away, but one that grows in time with us.

Put your life in cruise control and allow your life to follow into place the way it was meant to.

Love or Infatuation?

Independent is the way to go. In this day and era, so many girls seem to rely on a guy to make them happy. What is so special about this guy? You guys have your fights, make up and do it all over again. Teens nowadays seem to say "I love you" to the first person they meet, and it is mostly only after a week or a month. Stop. You do not even fully know that person, you probably know a little about them but not the full truth. 

Also how the heck do you know what love is? He is your first boyfriend not your husband you have been married to for many years. The only love you know is your parents love, and that is not even close to the relationship love.

I have not experienced love, nor have I really ever been in a relationship with a guy, but hearing others say it to one another makes me wonder. I start to wonder, what makes us say this silly eight letter statement? And honestly I do not have an answer, all I know is that we are too young and too naive to think we know what love is. We need to let ourselves find who we really are before we can find that one special person who we truly love. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/love

Summer Stressing

With summer vastly approaching, all us teens cannot wait to be out of school and at the beach or chilling by the pool with our friends. Everyone seems to be in the summer mood and are already planning their summer bucket lists. The long nights out, the cute new outfits, the parties, music, flings, and perfect tans.

Summer seems too short to be able to do all the activities one has in mind. I know for myself, have my summer is booked with sports, and weeks to spend with my friends. But the most important thing I need is a job, I am so close to getting my license and I know there is only so much gas money my mom is going to want to spot me. The stress of summer plans can be hard, but in the end it's a blast.

Some of the things listed above are great don’t get me wrong but, at times figuring about the basics and how it will all work it can be a pain.

How about the school work, I thought summer was a time to be free of school. It is always nice to lay down in the sun, but with a book that interests you and not one that you should be forced into reading. Luckily for me, I have only had to read one book that was not pleasing, I just sucked it up and read it.

This summer I'm just going to sit back, relax and soak in the sun because before I know it, junior year will be here in a flash.

I Miss You.

It is so hard to believe that you have almost been gone for two years come this Father's Day. You were truly my hero, my inspiration, my partner in crime, my best friend, my rock, my motivator, my biggest competitor, but most of all you were the greatest dad in the world. I could tell you anything and everything, we were inseparable. I swear sometimes mom didn't just want to kill one of us, but both of us when we pulled a prank on her. 

I miss the days we used to sit down and watch old war or James Bond movies for hours, or when we would go out in the yard and play softball until I hit all the balls into the street. My all-time favorite memories of us are the times we spent at the beach fishing, building sandcastles, and watching the boats go by. 

You have taught me so much throughout my life, I am truly grateful that you have been a part of my life. You are the strongest man I have ever known for all that you have accomplished throughout your lifetime. The greatest strength I have seen you demonstrate is those ten months that you spent battling pancreatic cancer. 

There were so many times in my life where you helped pick me up and carry me on my way onto a bigger, brighter future. The times when I saw you struggling, I wished I could have done the same for you, but sadly there is not a whole lot an 8th grader could do in that situation. It kills me to look back on those days and think why did I not help you. I am sorry for not doing more to help you.

I wish I could take back all the fights and dips in our relationship and strengthen the best parts. I know that fights between a father and daughter are normal, but I was over dramatic in so many of these battles, and I regret saying the things that I said. 

Even though you are not here with me physically, you are always on my mind and in my heart. I try my hardest to make you proud because I know that you always wanted to see me succeed in life. No matter what obstacles get in my way, I will keep my head up and stay strong for myself and mom. You are my guardian angel and the best guy I could ever have in my life, no one will ever take your place.

One day in the far future we will be reunited dad. Rest in peace to my best friend, my inspiration and my partner in crime. Sending you lots of butterfly kisses. 

Define a Beautiful Girl.

In today's society, with all the songs and advertisement of what a "beautiful" girl should look like, people become so caught up with trying to hold that image. The thing is though they do not realize that they themselves are truly beautiful. If you open up a Victoria Secret’s magazine, you see all these tall, fit, leggy supermodels in tiny bikinis. Is this the way we want girls to think they have to look to feel beautiful? I for one do not in any way look like that supermodel.

How about when we go into certain stores, their large may be realistically a small. How do you think this makes girls feel? It makes them self-conscious. Is this how we want society to be viewed as, a bunch of skinny, tan Barbie’s?

We should be able to feel beautiful in our own skin no matter what. Don't let anyone tell you you’re not beautiful. We are all perfectly unique and beautiful in our own way and do not need the media or anyone else to tell us differently.

I'm going to be cheesy here, but if you are ever feeling down just go listen to "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera and you will realize that we are all the definition of beautiful. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAfyFTzZDMM

Why Can't I Take My Own Advice?

I always seem to be that friend who everyone comes to for advice, whether it's about school, friends, boys, anything. Most of the time I seem to give them good advice that tends to work, but when it comes to myself being in that certain situtation, do you think I listen? No, of course I don't and I have no clue why.

I become so frustrated with myself for not going ahead and listening to the advice I give others because I know it would help me in the long run. Everyone always tells me I should listen to myself, but I guess I'm just my own worst critic.

Maybe I should start listening to what others have to say about my advice, and start applying it to my own life- hopefully there will be a better outcome.

Is It Wrong To Like My Guy Best Friend?

So there's a boy and I kind of have this crush on him, but he's my best friend. The thing is, I don't want to go ahead and tell him I like him- I'm scared it will ruin our friendship. In the past he has dropped hints that he likes me, but I do not know how to react.

The funny thing is, I didn't start liking him until this year around Christmas. He is the kind of kid that is your all around American boy: funny, kind, smart, athletic and just someone you want to be around. No matter what I can always joke around with him, he is like a brother to me. Is that weird?

I guess keeping our friendship strong is better than not having one and messing it up.

What do you think I should do?

Boys What's Your Deal?

Boys... why are they so confusing? I do not understand, one minute they act as though they like you and then the next minute they act as though they don't even know you exist. Or the typical guy that I tend to like always goes after the other girl.

Remember the good old days, when you were in kindergarten where boys and girls had coodies? Those were the simple days because no one liked one another; everyone could just be the best of friends and get along.

High school is crazy enough; there should not be a need to be stressing over a guy. Though at times we all get lonely and wish we had a guy to hang out with, talk to, and call your own, he is not needed to be happy. No matter what you do, do not change to please a guy- if he does not accept you for you, he is not worth your time. Someone better will come along who will accept your flaws and love your unique beauty.

Everyone always tells you to wait for the right guy because you will meet him someday. When is that someday? I do not want to wait forever. I guess for now I will focus more on school and just enjoying time with my friends, because these are the years you can never get back.